Back in October, I took part in Grow Soul Beautiful’s Yoga-A-Day Instagram challenge. It was fun to find new and interesting settings to practice yoga as well as new perspectives on the various asanas or poses – all through the lens of a camera. I learned to be more forgiving of myself (and how I expected to perform each of the poses) and most importantly, it rekindled a deeper love and connection to yoga.
I also discovered an amazing and supportive yoga community on Instagram, people who inspire me to deepen my practice and to continue to challenge myself. I also discovered more yoga challenges and decided to play along with some of them. Last week, as I was attempting one of these “challenge poses,” I managed to pull my hamstring. When I heard a slight “pop,” I was *so* mad at myself because it was completely my fault. I was stupid.
Here’s the thing. I tend to be a Type-A, competitive person which means that I often get caught in the comparison trap – comparing myself to other people and wanting to do as well or better instead of being proud of my own accomplishments and progress.
I thought that I had moved past this during the last year. As I recovered from knee surgery, I let go of my expectations for my recovery and my need to measure myself against the performance of other people, and I just let myself be in the process of recovery.
Then I started to get better. I started to run and to get back to “normal”. I started to feel normal and want to push myself a little bit more. At times, it felt like I had something to prove – that I’m back, that I’m normal, that I’m healed.
So I performed a stupid yoga trick when I probably shouldn’t have. I pushed myself a little bit harder and further than I probably should have.
I happened to have an appointment with my orthopedist scheduled for the day after I pulled my hamstring. After he checked out my knee and said it look good (still loose but the ligament is holding up and healing), I asked him about my hamstring. He examined me and asked me what I was doing. After I told him, he said, “Well, stop doing stupid yoga tricks.”
In the new year, I’m going to step away from challenges and focus on my own body and my own workouts. I’m going to settle back into my own routine and find MY equilibrium again.
Do fitness challenges push you in a good way or do you tend to push past your limits? Do you know any stupid yoga tricks? 😉