First off, thank you all so much for your comments and support on my post on Thursday about lessons on injury. I appreciate it more than you know. I was feeling a bit down after my doctor’s appointment last week but writing that post and hearing your feedback made it easier for me to take my own advice to be patient and trust in the process.
I finally had a chance to go for my first “run” on Sunday morning. I promised my physical therapist that I would only run for 10 minutes max and that I would take it easy. I knew that I would have to start slowly. So I did, gently edging up my speed to 4.5. I felt good to move my legs but also weird and hard. Not huffing-and-puffing hard but just physically hard. Again, I was humbled because 4.5 is a pace that I would normally walk. I tried to ignore that fact.
I felt good and I wanted to increase my pace a little. I bumped it up to 5.0 but my knee started hurting a little, right behind my kneecap. PunchPunchPunch my speed back down to 4.6 and I finished my “run.” My first post-surgery “run.” It was only 10 minutes and slow as hell but I will take it. It was a #BrilliantRun (thanks to my Mizunos).
Afterwards, I did my usual round of PT exercises and core work. Then, something amazing happened. I looked around the gym and eyed the wall. I made my way over and set up to do a headstand. I tried a couple of times and made it halfway up but then, I finally did it. I did my first headstand – without a teacher assist and without using the wall to prop me up.
I know that I’ve talked about my inversion aversion but headstand has been something that eluded me for, oh I don’t know, 10+ years maybe? It’s definitely been a huge block for me, I think more of a mental block than anything else. I know physically what I’m supposed to do but as soon as curl my legs up into my body and attempt to extend them up towards the ceiling, I crumple over.
When I was in Montauk, I tried SUP Yoga. We paddled out on stand-up paddle boards onto South Lake and went through a vinyasa flow on our boards. At the end of our practice, I tried to do a headstand on the board. I don’t know if it was the novelty of being on the water or that I had already accepted the fact that I was going to fall in the water anyway, but I was more fearless than I’ve ever been before when attempting headstand. While I didn’t manage to do one then, I did manage to backflip onto my board twice and not fall into the water.
But something clicked that day. Then, last week, I watched Miz’s headstand video and marveled at how quickly, easily and effortlessly she flipped herself upside-down. After watching her video, I knew that I would do it the next time that I tried.
This time, as I curled my legs inward, I remembered to breathe and I zipped my legs together and pulled in my core. It was an amazing feeling. I felt so light, like I floated upwards.
Did you have a good weekend? Do you find that your breakthroughs are often more mind over matter?